Ding dong the dick is dead

Well dumped anyway. Bye bye Badly Drawn Butthole :P

Oh yes, i am happy however because...

My Peaches, Hot Hot Heat and Rival school c.d's came. Woop Woop.

Tis gonna be a long 'un!

Hello Mike :D

Any way. Well i haven't been in Fishponds since Wednesday night as i have been helping out Sean at the pub. This proved to be emotionally draining but entertain none the less. I was also physically draining as i was mostly coming home from placement and having to jump behind the bar straight away. On Saturday i had a good cry as i was told that my "huffing and puffing" was irritating. That was the straw that broke the camels back and the mood carried on as i had to work whilst Sean and Laura sat in the garden and got pissed. I would have really appriciated the night off, which i guess is quite selfish but what are you gonna do? I'm not even sure if i had the right to be a bit annoyed but never mind i got my cuddles that evening none the less. The locals are lovely too which is fantastic.

Placement is going well, community nursing is a doddle barely have to do anything and i can book a few days off without anyone saying anything which is nice ha ha. Bit far out though which is a bummer but you cat win them all!

Birthday is on Sunday, most my mates have dropped out to attend a suprise birthday party in Wales which has dissapointed me. that coupled with my present coming from my family consisting of tesco vouchers and not even a visit im rather sad about the whole thing. Ah well i guess i must solider on, Sean said we would "do something" on my birthday, i dont deserve is as i didnt get him anything (i thought we had fallen out for good) so we shall see what that entails anyway. So birthday week consists of pub crawl down the Glouscester road on the friday, seeing Queens of the stone age on saturday and then going for a few drinks at the cat and wheel on sunday. So it might not be a that bad :)

Ive now come home to the mad house and have no bread, milk or butter. Happy days.

Peace out barmaid and nurse fans

XxX

He didnt call

Badly Drawn Butthole is offically out of the running. Your supposed to call me. Fuck wit.

Charlies gotta smile on her faaaaaaaace

I swallowed my pride and invited Badly Drawn Boy round. I got some, twice. Unfortunately the housemates came back right in mid orgasm so had to have a hasty retreat upstairs! But who cares, i got some sex! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Argh i need some therapy

I am getting horribly pissed off with myself now. He tells me him and Laura were up till 5.30am snogging and whatnot and i bawl my eyes out for a good 15 minutes. I don't know why he's telling me these things because all its doing is breaking my heart.

Eventful few days indeed.

Well. Had to choke back the tears and call Abby as i had to listen to Sean and that old woman (I can say that because Sean hasnt got net atm tee hee) have sex. I'm only jealous because i have nothing to distract me and she was nasty. Lip liner and a belly top and everything :P So i called Abby, made a joke of it and felt a tiny bit better. Had to waste £4 putting the juke box on very loud to drown them out.

But, to my surprise, he dumped her! Turns out shes a psycho so Charlie wins again :D Yeah i'm not bitter. Met Laura his one true love properly today and she is so lovely. She stopped for a drink after Dan dropped me home (more on this later) and he seemed so chuffed. Jealousy pains still panging like Santanas guitar but at least i know she is lovely. I just have to work at not being so hung up on the knobber. The self improvement goes on.

So anyway, Dan. Dan is a man that works at the pub sometimes and seems very nice and a bit of a jack the lad. Which is cool. However Sean and Laura are convinced he fancies me. I don't know about that. He seems nice but perhaps a bit old for me and a stoner apparently. But i think he has a flat or a house or something. I dunno, need to see what happens.

So thats the last few days anyway...well todays feelings about him yet again. Maybe i should re-name this blog the Sean and Charlie show? At least people will be warned its boring :P Sorry :D

Love you both my readers (might get a ticker thing like Benny babe face said)

Something positive...

Um, i have a part time job in a pub i like. Its now run by a man i like. So that is nice.

Belgian told me his was outside my house waiting for me tonight. Turns out the wanker wasnt there but i was disturbed none the less.

Badly drawn boy is still pushing to see me again. I'm still not sure, he does live too far away and he works in Bath the whole time. I think if im not clamouring to see him i have made up my own mind. So the man hunt continues.

Ok positive...um i get a free ride home one way which is nice, and the 2 of my 3 mates that still live in Brackley the shit hole want to see me so thats good. I'm not forgotten...well i am but ve reminded them i'm still here so thats good.

Bad news, essay isn't writing itself which i half hoped it would. Looks like optimism wont work this time, stupid brain.

Oh placement starts next week, off to the sunny shores of Henbury. Yes UWE does actually hate me more then my own Mother. Il have to make the best of it like i always do, and then moan about it loudly on here. Which is always fun.

Oh and Ben found my blog so a bug hullo to him the sexy man beast and i hope he read "an unintentional ode to Ben" form back in September.

Peaceout Rockafellas

Charlie Cat

Men men men, when will stop?

This is all i seem to be thinking of recently! Getting a bit silly in my book. Badly drawn boy text me which was nice but it has thrown me into fits of what the hell do i do's. He's lovely, but i just cant see him regularly. I'm pretty sure it would be kinder to realise him back into the wild so he can find a nice girl from Bath with a better temper then me.

To be honest id rather be curled up around Sean right now but thats not going to happen as he has found a new lady friend. Le sigh. Gotta move one properly. There again i might go over tomorrow after my meeting at Frenchay to see him. Wont hurt will it?

Got to call Kev on Tuesday to arrange this ill fated meeting on wed night. I would rather not go that day as i am skint and have lectures on the Thursday but i do miss him and remember what we were once like when i am with him. He makes me happy, it's just obvious he's not interested in rekindling anything. Which is understandable.

Hope fully il be able to put something positive in here in the next few days as this is depressing me let alone anyone reading this. (Id loveto know if there are anyone reading this, drop a comment or something :D )

Peace out

Charlie come a bubble gum.

Mini break...

Been to Cornwall for Abbys sisters birthday and had a wonderful time. Met one of the coolest people on the planet (Abbys cousin Ruth). Shes such a free spirit, and she drove us the long way through Dartmoor so i was happy as a pig in shit.

Badly drawn boy has text me, i realised i was over reacting, got too drunk on Friday night and got into a fight with an absolute knobber.

So ive fucked it all up with him. He didnt text me back last night so you know whatever, plenty more fish.

Sean is now running the Cat and Wheel and i have a job there. No room now was the other 3 are moving in which is rubbish but i guess i shouldnt have got so excited about the prospect in the first place, he wouldnt have left them all in the shit.

Kev met me on friday night for a drink. Im still hoplessly in love with him, Sean says he will mess me around and he probably will. He wants to meet me on Wednesday to get pissed. I am horribly skint which is an absolute bastard so i might have to cancel and i wont see him again for ages :( Sigh.

I plough on.

Badly drawn boy is a very bad man...

Sigh, the evils of Facebook. Hadn't heard from boy wonder sice Monday night so text him. Whilst chatting to Sean on msn I ideally browse BDB's facebook and discover he changed his status from "it's complicated" ie seeing me to nothing. Just looking for friends. And he has deleted my wall posts. So he calls me about half hour later and i very cooly ask him, "why have you deletedmy wall posts?" And he says "oh, er, i have been deleting them because i have too many, i just havent finished doing it yet"

Bullshit

He texts me later on to say that his ex is getting funny with him so he doesn't want to upset her. Ie letting her know i exist. For fucks sake it has been 2 maybe 3 months! I don't really care about what she has to think. He's a free agent and he can see who he wants. I am so unimpressed.

Sigh

So i think il ignore him till after the weekend then see what he has to say. If he doesnt contact me i shall consider it done with.

Oh and Belgian text me again tonight. He is going to get a severe beating soon.

Ooops need to update

Soooooo

Spent Sat in bed with Badly Drawn Boy (thats his nick name, if got into the habit of avoiding real names much to everyones annoyance). He is a big pile of lovely, and seems to think im the best thing since sliced bread which is nice :D However, he is being a bit funny with telling his olds that he split with his GF 2 months ago. Even though we are only "seeing" each other it would be nice for him to tell them about me. Or maybe i am asking too much or reading too much into what that means. He still hangs out with her but doesn't want to hurt her feelings. We shall see how that goes. He seems a little threatened by my friendship with Sean so i guess i can use that to my advantage ha ha.

Been thinking a lot about where im going to move to next year and who with. My current landlord is a cock end and i just live with 5 other people. Its making me mad. I spend too much time in here doing this instead of going out and trying to fit in with the others. But i have realise since last week that we are not going to be the best of friends. We are too different. Nothing against them at all, we just don't click like that. The people i have found that are on my wave length are all having internal problems of their own and i just don't feel part of them anymore. Which is a shame as i do love them all to pieces. So now i have Rhe and Kate, but they have housemates now, so it will def be next year.

So thats the rant for today anyway :)