Bluetack feels horrible when its wet...

McFlact. My god i feel terrible. Havent had a day to relax in weeks. Im talking serious weeks. Started at 10.am today and but 11pm i just gave up. Sean let me come up here and ive sicked my guts out and cried till my mascara ran into my mouth. Pure exhustion. Got to work tomorrow till 5pm then NYE. NYD i have OFF! Yes i said it OFF. I have no idea how il fair over the next few days. but il just have to grit my teeth and do it wont i. Cant have no staff in a pub. Poor Marianne has been left downstaris and cant go early now because im so weak :( I feel really bad. I did try and go downstairs again but Sean sent me back up again :(

So now i feel sick, tired and guilty.

Usual then

In other news i proclaimed to my ex that i still wanted to be his GF (this is an ex who i was seeing at PGL (Gap year) and now lives here) he was drunk, stuttered a bit and made some excuses. He said he would be in today. He wasnt. That didnt help the mood to be honest. In fact i think thats what started the anger at about 4pm tis afternoon. Sigh.

Ah well his loss and all thatblah blah blah.

Thank god its all over

So my sister is still the uber bitch from hell. Had about £200 pounds spent on her by her bf and she didnt appriciate any of it. I bought her a really nice skirt, that wasnt cheap, she lied about her dress size ten screwed it up and stuffed it into a bag. Nice. Won't be bothering with that anymore. Apart from that christmas was good. Parents were happy to see me and even wanted me to take on of the dogs with me! Had a brief discussion over the future of my nursing careea, or lack of. It seems they are happy for me to do the course and then not become a nurse. Shame at 21 years old i am STILL looking for thier approval for what i can do with my life. Though it does leave me open to pursue a carrea in animals. Of course now i have to find said job, vet nursing or ona farm or riding stables. Need to start networking really. Google is your friend!

Had a piss up in the pub last night. Feel rough now and had to work very hard to keep my stupid unjustified emptions in check. Slipped up once or twice but on the whole did very well. Woke up stupidly horney and didnt even try it on with Sean. Yeah im totally working this thing...still horney though. Cant win them all! I might even get up in a minute and go buy myself some new clothes. That always makes a girl feel good!

Anywho better go as i have more sleeping to do and aspirin to take. Im sufferning a little bit, need something hot inside me...oh shit, here comes the horneyness again. Le sigh.

Charlie tom cat.

Merry christmas

Much to say, not much time to say it so im just going to say MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU!

tHANKS

The Christmas Charlie Cat

And i just sold out

I earn money when you click on the ads :D

Spongy McSpongerson

Didn't come after all.

Roffle.

Should be married by now

22:51] Ady: How old are you now anyway?
[22:51] Charlie cat is keeping it new school: 21
[22:52] Ady: Oooh should be married by now
[22:52] Charlie cat is keeping it new school: what!
[22:52] Charlie cat is keeping it new school: shut up


Well thats made me feel so much better.

Waking up is so hard to do

So i missed uni today. Ha Ha. Found out sponge is stopping tonight so i made a hasty exit from the pub. Def need to start staying in the spare room. Sean is getting a bit pissy with me taking over his personal space, and quite rightly too. I guess ive not been a very good friend, but i did do ALL his washing and tidy his room and the kitchen so i think i deserve muchos brownie points ;)

Me and Marianne have decided that we are Marges sisters from the Simpsons, never to have men again. Shes going to buy an iguana...

Christmas is fast approaching and the shopping is done so thats good. Seeing my sister, im actually looking forward to it, shes really chilled out. Mummy doesnt know about me piercing my nose yet so that'l be fun:P

Not much else to chat about to be honest. Gosh im boring :D

See ya

ok im over the boob thing

But still unlucky with the fellers, sigh, ah well they are NOT the be all and end all of life...probably. Had a hetic week with, you guessed it, working. Cancled an evening with the ex of dinner and hotels to work, i couldnt leave pip on her own could i! Shes a ledge. Took over £2000 at the pub this arvo with just two of us working flat out and Sean helping when he wasnt in the cellar. Pip and i were were shattered so took a long and well deserved break after with wne and San Migal flowing freely! Chicken nuggets were for dinner! Yum!

Everything seems to have settled down completely now to be honest, i no longer feel the jealous pangs with Sean, still fancy the fuck out of him but have decided that getting together really would be like me signing a death warrent...for him anyway ha ha! Need to go and find my own life really. Stop thinking about being in a relationship and be happy with me, im a great but ive forgotten who i am. Too many fake plastic smiles behind the bar when im serving or on placement when im dressing that weeping leg ulcer (sorry if you are eating! ) And thanks mike, once again you have made me smile and have that little feeling of self satisfication rise up inside me. That nice feelign you get when you know it aint all bad ;)

Thinking of you all

Charlie

Hmm boobs...

So i was looking at a recent topless pic of me and a video of me stripping back when i was about 18/19 and i've realised i have very horrible boobs! They really arent something to be proud of these days. So i need to either loose weight or get a boob job. Boob job isnt really high on my financial list of things to do so i think i need to lose about a stone or two. Problem though, will my boobs look better or will they just get saggy and nasty??

Answers on a postcard please...

Paws for thought

Is it wrong that now i want nipple tassels?

My clothes smell of mould...

As ive not been home for days and they were left out wet by me!

So update, Joss came to stay at the pub for the night, much to my dismay. But she left and all was good! I was horrendously annoyed that i was shoved into the spare room for her majesty but never mind. One night never killed anyone! Been working uber hard at the pub, me and Sean seem to be getting on ok again which is lovely, he got his back patch this weekend so much celebration was done.

Worked 10am to 1am on Sat then the bar staff and a few locals sat down and proceeded to get throughly twatted and much laughter and joy was to be had. In fact ive not had that mich fun in a long time, i needed it!

There is also a boy who apparently is "quite taken" with me who is a semi regular at the pub. Of course as its me im getting horribly excited even though i haven't even spoken to him about it or arranged a date or anything! So as we all know its going to fall flat on its face before it starts, but its something to smile about anyway. Met another guy on the net that seemed interested but has replied to a message since sat so il probably chalk that down to a no thanks, but never mind.

Nursing is going well, horribly tired but im enjoying it and learning a fair bit.

And i cant write my blog without mentioning Sean at least twice! Well things have been going very well, im really starting to get over the whole thing, of course i still feel that stab of jealousy when he talks to girls but thats to be expected.The only thing that has really wound me up was having "her" upstairs and barely seeing him all night. But i think that is mostly down to the fact that im not a number one fan. I am so proud of myself so far. I know i sound like a crazy person going on about him all the time but i don't really have much else going on in my life! HA!

Well i really do hope things work out with this new guy, if it ever gets off the ground that is, hes a bit of a metal head so that could be interesting, he also designs Burlesque night flyers, which i think is pretty effing cool!

Hello to my blog followers, and stay safe!

Charlie Wench.

Mmmm cereal

Quick update, getting over Sean slowly, felt ok last night when he, laura and her mate were playing games and having a laugh and a drink. I think the main jealousy pangs are coming from the fact that he doesnt find me new and exciting anymore, a natural progression of friendship i know but a bit of a blow all the same. I wish that he would sit and play games with me, but having someone in your face 24/7 doesnt usually make most normal people want to spend huge amounts of their spare time with you.

Anyway i am currently working 36.5 hours on placement and 31+ hours at the pub so i am updating as best i can!

And thank you to all my lovely comments :)

Charlie big boobs.

3am

And ive been rudely awoken, and now im crying. Thanks for that. As long as your sleeping like a baby eh?

Oh good grief.

Just when i think im getting there i see Seans Facebook status is tipsy. So i say ooh who are you drinking with? Its Laura. No surprises. He then continues to ask me to big him up to her so i snap and say no i wont do that. I was very reserved it has to be said, theres 101 things i wanted to say but kept it short and to the point. He says im his best friend and hes sorry for hurting me so why does he keep asking me to tell her how amazing he is?

So now my good mood has spiraled into the usual loathing of being single. Which is ridiculous as i know im not a bad person, my face doesn't scare children, i have a great rack, im funny, witty, intelligent, firey, awesome in bed, curvy, small, loving, sweet and punctual!

It's just meeting that one person who isnt a complete cunt isnt it?

Peaceout breast fans.

The "what i did on my birthday" post.

Ok so here we go, another long one :p

So friday was spent out on a pub crawl down the Glouscester road. We started in the Flyer where we were very quickly drenched in a monsoon that is usually reserved for such occasions, luckily spirits were not dampened with it. We wondered down to the rising sun, the prince of wales and then finished in, of course, the cat and wheel. It was lovely to have a nice time drinking and not becoming paralytic. Good friends and good vodka! Sean finished the night perfectly by buying everyone a pizza afterwards, i stayed over at the pub so i could clean the next day, coz im nice like that :P

Sataurday was spent lunching with my sister and her fiance and then off to watch queens of the stone age in the evening. It was a truly marvelous gig with 80's matchbox B line disaster supporting. I had a damn good spot on the stairs and i have now realised i have fallen head over heels in love with Josh Homme. Damn those watery blue eyes and sexy american accent, youknow its the way he says vodka and "this one is about LSD!". The dream boat.

Sunday was spent getting up, going for Weatherspoons breakfast (having to miss yummy lunch with Bens olds but im sure i can do that next year ) then i went to meet a mate for an hour or too, he bought me a printer :). Went to the pub where Sean took me to this amazing little mexican round the corner and i had the yummyest food ive had in ages. Both Sean and I admired the waitress' norks and then bimbled off back to the pub for drinks. Me and Eddi worked out that i drank 17 vodkas...and i was fine! Absolutely fine! Not even a headache!

Thus ended an amazing few days, i'm in a wonderfully good mood which is unusual but greatly welcomed!

21 Is awesome!