Sean found the blog. He doesnt like the blog. Yeah im being unfair when i talk about him but its my feelings, its going to be onesided.
Apparetly im not a good friend. I dont think he has any idea how hypocritical he is. He has systematically built me up and ripped me apart. Ive tried to be a good mate, and i have got it horribly wrong sometimes but this is taking the piss. Yeah i have made his life pretty hard for the last few months, but it could have all been sorted if he was just honest with me.
Maybe its me. Maybe he just cant open up to me. Maybe there is something fundimentally wrong with me that makes him act like this. I am just utterly lost. All i want is for him to be happy. Maybe he would be happier without me. I doubt i will hear from him again after this last lot of words.
I am trying so hard to do this but i dont think i can. He doesnt need my attitude and i dont need his at the moment. I dont know i guess i will just have to wait from him to contact me (ha ha). I wouldnt blame him if he cut ties.
Is it so much to ask for your friend to open up to you? Fuck it. Sean if you are reading this, which i am sure you are, i'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything i did to hurt you and i hope you are sorry too. Just tell me what you need me to do and you wont be mentioned here again. Ever.
Gah
Anyway i was out on the piss last night with some uni mates and have end up with a cold and a hangover. Had a jolly time and i love Pips house. I am so moving to nine tree hill the minute my lease runs out here. I hate it here.
Hope everything works out.
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