You want to book it where?

I seem to be posting a lot of pictures up of other peoples work instead of writing about what's happening to me. Mostly this is because i am devoid of any talent when it comes to being funny and drawing at the same time.

So me, well the split has affected me more then i gave myself credit for. I did really like him and it makes it worse that this isn't his fault, he just has stupid brain chemicals and there is nothing any of us can do. I feel it is my pride that has taken the brunt of the battering, he has all the cards and he has them in a locked box strapped to his chest. He text me an apology on the Tuesday but refused to reply after i sent him a message back.

I don't know if opening up the wound would do either of us any good but he has managed to make himself feel better by removing the factor causing him too much stress (me) and has transferred that negative energy to me. I have managed to turn it all in on myself and if i am not not careful i start to believe that this is all my fault or he met someone else. Of course none of this true (hopefully) but it doesn't stop it being real in my stupid head.

Anyway i will be fine in a week and it is nothing that a few pizzas and friends can't solve. It was nice whilst it lasted and it was nice for it to have been with someone who had nothing to do with any of the shit of the past 3 years.

To change the subject work is getting on ok but the ward night out i organised was a complete disaster. People were rude, drunk and surly. The food wasn't up to scratch, i wasn't given what i was promised and to round it off we ended up in a terrible club which set my nasty head cold back off again. I was in bed by 12am and felt awful for two days afterwards. You can understand how i feel that i have to organise the sodding xmas party too. Most have them have claimed that at a hotel venue i have booked the food is too posh, the venue too far away and the price of £35 (3 course meal, DJ and disco and gorgeous views!!) is far too expensive...THEY ALL EARN MORE THEN ME!!. Jesus if it isn't chicken in a basket then they don't want to know. In fact they all want to go to a local buffet restaurant...for a christmas meal. It's cheap, cheerful and nearby and thats what they want. Only 6 people included me have paid deposits for the hotel and quite frankly i have had enough. I tried to find another place to eat but Tapas is too foreign, Italian doesn't have a turkey dinner option (where the hell is the turkey dinner option for a buffet restaurant that only serves Indian, Chinese, Mexican and Italian food??) and i flat out refused to do it in a Harvester.

My manager has spoken, we are going to go to the hotel anyway. If you don't want to come then you can go to the buffet place and you can organise it yourself. 3 weeks i;ve been trying to organise this thing so if you miss out then tough. Grrr.

People are hell sometimes.