Good god this is still here?

Well well i had forgotten i even had a blog! I like to think this is mostly because things have been going rather well on the whole. I have a lovely boyfriend who makes me very happy and hopefully he feels the same, my job is ok (i haven't gone postal or cried so it can't be that bad) i have lost weight and put half of it back on but that is more that i just can't put cake down rather than i am sad. I am fit, and healthy bar the ankle that refuses to heal and i am really coming into my own with my "look". To some people a look really isn't that important but for me who has dressed like either a 15 year old boy or an ageing slapper in the past this is a big thing!

I am having a few confidence wobbles (tonight being one of them). I'm not sure what happened but the minute i left work i suddenly felt very very low and very irritable. This resulted in some obsessive washing up (you know i am sad because i am cleaning) and listening to angry or sad music very loudly and just being horrible to my mates. I am working on snapping out of it but failing miserably hence i have been in bed since 8:45 to save them from me.

I have found a new dream for my future which is not the boho cafe (because lets face it there is no way any idiot would give me a loan to buy one) which is being a mortuary assistant. Some may think that is bonkers but i spent an hour down at the morgue today to see what people get up to down there and it was good fun! I got to measure someone, got to lay a young lad out for a viewing and then enter the information on the computer. All in all a good way to spend an hour and the guy who works there said i can pop back any time i like :)He makes a good coffee too.

So just to let you know i am not dead, i will get back onto updating this a little more regularly i will also let you know how i get on with my mega list of amazing goodness.